Is it the end? Yup, a climacteric truth... Ending with her marriage, where I'm presuming myself at a corner, feeding myself as hungry as I would have fasted the whole day. And my friends will be overreacting to make me calm, even if I'm not crying at all. Why would I? I shared that I have no guilt. Enough now! Let's stop this imagination for now!
For now, let's complete all the incomplete stories about her. Although I know, everyone knows everything about her because I made her viral. Viral among my friends, family and my diary, but let me connect everything chronologically...
*It starts with a crush*
"So, who is your crush?" She asked (not Aroma)
"Ah... You mean Candy Crush?" I replied as a noob.
"No! Please tell your crush fast" She asked again
"Hey, I know crush is either candy 'crush' or crushing something"
"Stupid! Crush means the one who you like very much" She explained
I got the meaning, and really the first time.
"Oh, Ok, will tell you later…" and somehow I escaped that day and the situation. The situation created in FEA by Sakshi. (Already talked about her in my old pages)
That night, I didn't sleep well, thinking about whom the hell is my crush? What really is a crush? But I have to answer her! And then I started introspecting… the girls I used to talk with. Is it Rani? The prettiest girl of my class, or Is it Nidhi? The most fair girl of my session or Is it someone from tuition or Is it Khushboo? My very first neighbor, or Is it Sakshi herself? Who at least asked me this.
The next day!
"Yes, who is your crush?" As yesterday.
But this time I answered confidently, "My crush is Rani, and Khushboo, and Nidhi, and You"
"Hey? Are you MAD? Crush is the only one you like the most!"
And finally I ended up in Khushboo. And why?? Because she was my neighbor. Rani would go far away when I change my school for science, and same with Nidhi and Sakshi when my session ends. But Khushboo can't be separated, because we both live on rent in the same apartment, on the same floor.
"Ok, So Khushboo is my Crush!", I concluded.
My conversation clarifies that I was a noob, but Sakshi tapped my switch on to feel for girls and made me realize, I could also love.
We have often changed our home, and it was the 5th, I guess. There were already more than 4 girls in the apartment, most with my age or nearby. But also most were not single. How do I know? They shared about their boyfriends and then new boyfriends, each time warning me not to repeat their mistakes. And why not me? Oh, I was a bookworm, obviously. But sometimes it feels good when their parents give my example to study, like "Look at this boy, the whole day, reading his books in the corridor, or the roof, or stairs, or anywhere possible". Oh, forgot Aroma for a while.
*Who is Aroma?*
Among all, Aroma was the prettiest, thin as me, long as me (not comparing), looks at me (when I look at her) with her ever-growing smile, and talks with me with her sweet, shy and innocent voice. She is the girl with responsibilities and Her Attitude.
She used to agree with me when others didn't. And what does she take in return? Her selfies with my phone, her Guru Randhava's songs, a porter's service from home to FEA. And help to create her first FB ID, which I really didn't want to create. Why would I want to? There are already lots of guys staring at her. Anyway… it's like memories, when she completed FEA, and we used to talk about our secrets in the corridor, in English with our books open. One side Chemistry, another side Pol. Science. Who knows English there, after us?
*The Friendship Band*
Once, It was summer vacation going on. I was at the roof, sharpening a piece of metal to create another secret tool. And alone as usual. She suddenly came and saw me, "What are you doing here at this time?". "Ah… just nothing," I replied with innocence. She took her school bag hanging and started searching if anything was left in the bag. And she found a friendship band. "You want it?" She asked. "Me?" in surprise. "Of course you, can you see anyone else here?". And I accepted it like a good gift. The band was so special that I never used it, instead kept it secretly. Hm… the gift I don't have because I left it in FEA, the day when I was worried, and she kept ignoring me, talking to Ashwani. I thought to impress her by showing her the band which I kept for more than a year, but she didn't impress at all.
*Ashwani Involved*
Hm… Ashwani reminds me of a lot of incidents. I didn't like him, because he was an extremely extroverted graduate, and I'm still an introvert. The first incident was when he was following us up to an alley and then proposed Aroma in front of me. I didn't stop him at first because his friend closed my ears with his hands and I thought that he was going to confess from my side. Why my side? Because they knew I liked Aroma before them, before anyone of them! But, anyway… the 2nd incident was in my favour, when he was staring at us on the roof, from another building and passing comments. First I asked Aroma to go downstairs, and then shouted at them as loud as I could. Although, I didn't notice when Aroma's father came to the roof. Did he listen to anything?
Another incident (not related to Ashwani) was, when a fraud call came to Aroma, and she asked me to handle it. I behaved like her boyfriend and threatened the caller, telling him so many legal actions I could take or hacks I could do, although most of it was just acting. I just used his info against him, gathered from True Caller.
Her story won't finish like this but finally, let's come to the Confession, my confession… (and not for marriage)
*The Confession*
It was about 2 years of our friendship, friendship of talking and not talking as a challenge. Almost every one of our age knew that I liked her, but the audience wanted to listen. Chinnu forced me to confess to her, and finally I decided to confess my feelings to her, at her nearby birthday, with a nice gift. Huh… but plans don't work. That day, in the evening, when she was washing utensils in the open, and I was looking at her from the side balcony. A very awesome time was passing and suddenly her sister said, "Hello Jijju!". At first, I was pleased to listen to this, but what the f***, I just heard? I mean, she (Aroma) heard. She left her work in between and started catching her sister until her sister closed herself in the bathroom and Aroma continuously tried to open it. In the whole situation, I was still like, what just happened and what to do next? And finally I said, "Yes, whatever your sister is saying is true". "What?" She turned. "Yes I… I mean, I like you". It wasn't as simple as I'm writing it here, but finally I had to do it. "But why didn't you confess before, if you liked me?". I couldn't answer. I was shivering, my face was like crying and like I couldn't handle or faint in a few seconds. Audience I.e., the young girls of the apartment were cheering for me, "Sis say Yes, Yess!, Plz say Yess!, He deserves!". They did because they knew how much I liked her. But, what you expect? She said "No" and went to the roof. I was broken before the reply but followed her to the roof with a hope. But her response didn't change…
The End?
Soon we started talking once again, and she said, "that day you were like crying. So I said No because you weren't in the state to listen, yes". Just a diplomatic argument. Anyway… but the same question arises, why didn't I confess her long before? Of course, because of her happiness. She had a bad experience of having her old boyfriend, about whom I already knew everything from Lalit. And she never wanted to repeat this bf gf stuff again, as she shared. And this is the reason I decided not to confess as long as I could resist. Hmm… if I love someone, I want their happiness whether I'm in their life or not.
*Present Scenario*
Yes, she is still my friend. Although not replying because she is busy in her marriage curriculum. Although, always denied going somewhere with me or a date because she is always busy. But I believe she is still my friend…